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Apr. 20th, 2007

  • 2:43 AM

Hey guys, this sounds really silly... but please pray for my passport to come. I renewed it almost 2 months ago (it usually takes two months to finish) and I have until the 27th for it to come... I don't want to be unable to go home because of this! Please let it come on time...

Haha, I thought this was fitting because of an upcoming physics exam tomorrow...


It is now 2:41 AM and I am still writing my final paper for English... I am still working on it because I want it to be spectacular, but right now, it still looks pretty bad.

My physics cheat sheet looks like a work of art, though. All in color, printed on glossy paper. It looks pretty awesome. I just hope it will come in handy and help me pass tomorrow's exam!

Apr. 16th, 2007

  • 9:49 PM

We lift up our song
Sing as one voice
To the King, let it ring,
We need You

We lift up our lives
Living sacrifice
Give it all, at Your call
We need You

Unify us, purify us
So that we will change the world
So that we will change the world

Jesus, You are our peace
Reconciler of all
In unity, endlessly
We need You

Jesus, You are our hope
The giver of life
Without You, what would we do?
We need you

Urbana 06 - Unify Us

This song stirred my heart so deeply at Urbana, and it still continues to do so. My Urbana CD came in the mail today, and it was such a comforting thing on such a tragic day. To know God is sovereign and still Lord of all Lords on a day when our nation is mourning, when my heart is saddened and questioning, "Lord, why did you allow such a thing to happen?", God stills my heart through music.

Please keep our fellow brothers, sisters, and students at Virginia Tech in your prayers in the coming weeks. I cannot even imagine what they are feeling/going through right now. What happened today could've very well happened on any of our campuses -- praise God for the safety He has blessed us with. Let us be unified lift them up in prayer tonight and in the coming days.

Apr. 16th, 2007

  • 8:57 AM

So... senior send-off was last night. What a whirlwind of emotions...

Seniors, I know I haven't gotten to know a lot of you very, very well, but you guys have really made a big impact in my life. From freshmen year, everytime we went out to eat, I don't think I've ever paid for a single meal. You guys were always there to ask me how I was doing and to pray with me when I was going through a rough time. Even though I only know a handful of you very well, I'm still going to miss you guys a lot. I promised myself I wouldn't cry last night, but I did, although it was later on when I got home. You guys have done so much for the fellowship, and we thank you for it! Your openness and willingness to serve is what kept me at CCF and not another fellowship. I'm really going to miss you guys. Please come back and visit us!!

For Jeff and Lisa -- although I personally didn't get to have many one-on-one conversations with you guys, your wisdom and desire to follow Jesus and live wholeheartedly for them has really inspired me. Jeff, I really loved your Intervarsity staff workshop -- it really got me thinking about the prospect of going on staff, although I still have to think long and hard about it. Your perseverance and love for the campus is really inspiring, and I thank both of you for your commitment to us and for always being there to help us out financially (by finding us scholarships!) for us to go on training events and for pushing us to grow. You guys have made a lasting impact on all of us, and I wish you the best in Chicago. I also had a lot of fun babysitting Emma, and I know she is so blessed to have you guys as her parents!

On that note, I really look forward to next year's apartment.

These girls are amazing. Can't wait for all the fun times we'll have together! (Thanks to Betsy for taking pictures! My camera ran out of batteries after I took pictures of all the seniors talking.)

Apr. 5th, 2007

  • 12:48 PM

Class Schedule for Melissa Pan by Mschedule.com
  Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday
10:00am   LING 350
B261 EH
LING 350
B261 EH
12:00pm       BIOLOGY 100
1239 CHEM
1:00pm PSYCH 384
1040 DANA
1046 DANA
1040 DANA
2:30pm   ENGLISH 381
1401 MH
1401 MH
3:00pm ASTRO 127
3118 AH
3118 AH
4:00pm   BIOLOGY 100
1210 CHEM
1210 CHEM

Schedule for next semester. Still thinking about the psych lab -- that would put me at 18 credits again, which I'm not sure I want to do... but I might just check it out the first day and decide then. I'm excited about all my other classes though!

Psych 384 - Behavior and Environment. Always been really interested in environmental issues -- mix that with psych, it sounds pretty interesting.
Astro 127 - Naked Eye Astronomy. Hahah, one seat left and two minutes till my registration time... I got it! Needed for my elementary ed stuff.
English 381 - Asian American Literature. Always wanted to take a class like this.
Bio 100 - Biology for Non-scientists.
Linguistics 350 - Second Language Learning/Teaching in a Second Language. Sweet.
Psych 317 - Community Lab. Learn about research methods and conducting research in communities. Partner with a community organization in Detroit and come up with your own research project. Sounds kind of cool.

Well, we'll see what happens. Is anyone else in any of these classes?

Apr. 3rd, 2007

  • 9:16 PM

Scheduling for next semester = exciting! I wanted to take Psych 457, a seminar in Development through Children's Literature (taught by Shreier, who is amazing) but it only had 30 seats... haha. I register on Thursday, so I hope my other classes are open until then!

Ideally, next semester will only have 14 credits, with all mornings (cept Wednesday, I think?) and Friday free. What a big change from this year!

Might have a job next year as the MESA/Trotter Community Development and Student Services Representatitive. Whoa, what a long name... update on this later.

I just bought a cookbook on Amazon.com - "Cooking Outside the Pizza Box: Easy Recipes for Today's College Student". It looked pretty good, and was only $10 for 200+ recipes - too good to pass up. It should come in handy next year!

So some of you have asked me why I decided not to lead small group again next year... I have been thinking about it a lot, and thought I should give a well-thought out answer. Small group this year was amazing, and I take no credit for it -- it was all God. He used two people (Brian and I) who were inexperienced and nervous, and truly provided a multitude of blessings for our small group. He brought a lot of incoming freshmen, most of which still come consistently, and I cannot praise Him enough for that. From listening to my friends, the freshmen in our small group have grown a lot this year, and many of them will be leaders next year. It was so exciting to be a part of that, and I will really miss it!

However, this year was so draining for me. Academically, emotionally, and whatnot -- I had a lot of work, and I felt like I wasn't giving my small group the time and attention it deserved. Often, Brian and I would plan a general outline, but it wasn't really detailed and a lot of the time, I would've liked to do a better job. But I think our small group still grew a lot this year -- I know I certainly did! But I just didn't feel that I was called to take responsibility in this way again next year, which is why I turned it down. However, I will still be serving as a a small group helper, which I'm so excited about.

So sleepy... but physics is on Thursday, so I have to keep studying...

Mar. 20th, 2007

  • 8:42 PM

Haha, these had me laughing for a good five minutes. Thanks to Phyllis and the Shei booth at GenAPA for a good laugh and lots of fun!


Haha, so gangster.

Feb. 28th, 2007

  • 11:31 AM

Quote of the day:

Little girl: (comes up and hugs me) You know, you're a really good helper.

Me: Aww, thanks!

Little girl: You're welcome. Do you think maybe tomorrow, you could help out at my table?

She's the sweetest.

I played House for the first time since elementary school today. I made "fruit salad" (which consisted of multi-colored plastic balls) for my "kids" (three little girls) and they loved it. We also got to see some true hip-hop dancing for the talent show this Friday. The cutest four year old little boy was AMAZING. Oh my gosh, I wish I'd gotten a video clip of this guy. He was so tiny, but so good!

The Michigan Alumni Club in Chicago treated us to Chicago deep-dish pizza tonight at one of the alumni's apartment. Wow, it was delicious.  We definitely stuffed ourselves, and since we were the last to leave, we got to take all the leftovers for tomorrow's meal.

We've been having big sleepovers in the education room everyday. Since we're one of the few teams who didn't have to look for housing and we get to stay at the place we volunteer at, at night, this place which is usually bustling with kids is all ours. All 9 of us end up sleeping in the same room downstairs because it's one of the few rooms with carpet. It's a lot of fun, and we cook our own meals too. It's funny how today, Kian said, "You know, I've eaten more on this trip than I usually do at home." Totally true, because at every meal, we're always like, "We don't know when we get to eat next, so we'll eat two servings." We always end up having more than enough food, so yeah... definitely been eating more than usual. It's all good, though. It's been challenging, but fun.

I never played pool until I got here, and I don't know how many games of pool I've played. And I'm actually getting pretty good at it. Bumper pool is the most fun, though - if you haven't played it, you should! There's a ton of kid games here, so it's a lot of fun - sort of like, reliving your childhood.

Getting warm smiles and hugs from the kids makes all of the challenging parts of the trip worth it, though. I've definitely learned to appreciate the simple things in life that we always take for granted. I hope God continues to teach me more in the next couple days!

Feb. 17th, 2007

  • 11:06 AM

I was so convicted by York Moore's talk last night at Coffeehouse. He talked about the Jesus we followed - the nitpicky one hanging on the walls of Hallmark stores, or the cosmic garbage collector, who is found among the poorest of the poor, in places ravaged by AIDS and poverty. Which Jesus do you follow? I found myself realizing that my perception of Jesus was very warped -- when I think about Jesus, yes, I do think that He cares about the poor, but to what extent? I realized that I am called to care for these people as Jesus did. I distinctly felt a call from God to do something about it this summer. My heart broke as I watched the videos of all those orphans, all those invisible faces -- I want to do something about it!

But what, Lord? What can I offer to alleviate a crisis of this scale? What can I use my resources for?

So this morning, I logged on to World Vision, and decided to sponsor a child living in an AIDS/HIV community. $35 -- really isn't that much to us. That's like, 2-3 meals eaten out, and for $35 a month, you can keep that child and their family alive. My small group sponsored a little girl last year together, and it's just amazing to see how much this money can do for a child. Pretty amazing, huh?

There's still a lot more to be done. But I thank God that He is slowly transforming my heart to love justice and the poor as He does.

Feb. 11th, 2007

  • 12:06 AM

The highlight of an long week/day...

Thanks for making me feel extremely special.

Feb. 8th, 2007

  • 4:30 PM

starting to burn out...

I'm starting to feel that taking 18 credits was not a good idea this semester. I'm feeling the strain of school, more than I've ever felt before. I'm exhausted all the time, and every time I get back to my room, I fall asleep for hours. I can't seem to stay awake in some of my classes (cognitive psych...), and the classes that I do find interesting and challenging (physics), I'm doing really poorly in.

Along with school, there's the GSI training job, which isn't too bad, since it's only two hours a week. There's ASB, which I'm looking forward to, so I guess you could say that's something that's not really a burden to me. Small group... I feel like God has blessed SPAM so abundantly, but I haven't been a good steward to the responsibility He's given me. I feel like I'm just doing the minimum to keep my small group going --I don't put enough time and effort into planning for small group, and I know I should do more and plan more, but I just can't find the time and energy to do so... and I know that's no excuse.

Prayers please?

I haven't talked to my family in a while, and I miss them. The time difference makes it so hard to find a time to call home. I'm going home on 5/8, and I feel myself looking forward to that day more and more. God, help me to keep my priorities straight right now, and my perspective fixed on the here and now instead of on other things.

At least I have Grey's Anatomy to look forward to tonight, as my relaxing activity of the day. The episode looks really intense.